Adam Demos is searching for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Adam Demos,

You have a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding your identity. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Adam Demos’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling his psyche. Because his sensitivity is in conflict with his determination, his attitude and performance may sometimes be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, he has the feeling he has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging his yearnings and fulfilling his ambitions. His unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of his conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage his plans. In his relationships, the images he builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, might also annoy him. He could find it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

You were raised in a disciplined and sober home, and as a result, you grew up very quickly. You have developed a spirit of self-reliance, are rather uncompromising, and have a touchy sense of your personal dignity and worth. It is almost as though you were fighting an inner battle with your father or a father figure. The psychological models you received from your father or a father figure as a result of your interaction and your own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping your relationships with the outer world and society. You may thus have been forced to compensate for this with individual determination. As a result, although you are skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes you timid and hesitant. You sometimes feel as though you are only masquerading as a respectable, sober adult. You tend to be far too critical of yourself and rarely feel satisfied that you are living up to your ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead you to turn down the prominent career positions for which you are fully qualified. You are aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like you.

Adam Demos, you are a very sensitive person who lives in osmosis with your surroundings. Your individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over you, and you sometimes find it difficult to communicate your feelings to other people or engage in any structured, analytical thought. This may stem from a misunderstanding with your teachers when you were a child. Unable to understand their disciplinary measures or authority, you may have withdrawn into yourself in self-defense. It was then that you constructed your rich inner life, the part of you they could not invade, and cut many of your ties to the outside. Because you enjoyed indulging in your inner life, it may have been difficult for you to acquire an objective vision of reality. As a result, even today, you tend to create imaginary problems for yourself, regardless of the objective facts outside. Although your imagination is a source of inspiration and intuition, your fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for you to grasp the essence of your dreams and share them with other people. You are not at all combative, and this tends to hinder your efforts to fit into society and assert yourself productively. You are likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but your refusal to abandon your unattainable dreams is a psychological trap you have fallen into without realizing it. You must understand that by running away from your obligations and commitments, you only increase the feelings of guilt and incompetence which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once you free yourself from this pernicious process, you have a great deal of potential for fulfilling yourself in the outer world, either by devoting yourself to some sort of social work or by cultivating your considerable artistic talents.

Adam Demos has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. He is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with his “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of himself, he is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of his instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness he has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for him at the outset. It is not easy for him to recognize himself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so he sometimes finds himself forced to assert and express his own identity in a way which may strike his contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.

Adam Demos is physically and mentally free. His youth and home may have been of the rootless, wandering type, which could have given him a taste for movement and independence. He needs to be aware that his life has a purpose and hunt for it in various belief systems, both traditional and new age. In fact, he has an unmistakable gift for philosophy. The faraway appeals to him, and travel is likely to be an important aspect of his life.

Adam Demos’ intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, he does not always avail himself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although he enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, his thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. He is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste his nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, his feelings sometimes blur his objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause him to make errors in judgment.

Adam Demos maintains strong ties with his past, and it often seems difficult for him to open his heart to new people. His love affairs might exist on the surface level, because his lust and sensual desire rarely turn into a need to understand, protect, and care for the other. Moreover, it is difficult for him to meet partners who combine the ideals of the tender parent and the great lover.

Although your demeanor is cool and distant, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and your refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. You may have suffered rejection in your infancy, and, as a result, lacked the parental love which is essential to the cohesion of a personality and identity. In order to feel secure, and to protect yourself from ever suffering rejection or abandonment again, you withdrew into yourself and developed your aloofness as a defense mechanism. When you finally let down your defenses and allow yourself to express your feelings, you tend to become impassioned and exalted. You are fairly introverted and egocentric and have a powerful sense of your own identity.

Adam Demos resents having to impose limitations on himself, and he may sometimes try to dodge obligations and commitments. The obstacles and hindrances reality places on his path to personal and social development tend to depress him. He sometimes broods bitterly about the frustrations to his self-fulfillment and might have a fairly pessimistic vision of society and its possibilities.

Adam Demos has a romantic nature and is seeking a soulmate. The world of his emotions is warm and inviting, the expression of true kindness. Tenderness, grace, and mildness rule his sensitivity, which is aroused by contact with nature and thrills to the idea of a secure, stable home.

Adam Demos’ birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of his emotional urges and somewhat wary of his feelings, Adam tries to rid himself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Adam Demos is unstable and impressionable. He is constantly uncertain about his feelings. Nothing ever seems to meet with his high emotional aspirations, and when he thinks he has finally found his ideal match, usually it is because his aspirations have changed. As a result, there are likely to be several commitments or marriages.

Adam Demos has had more than his fair share of heartache in his relationships. Gentle and tender, he is particularly attracted to cold and austere people who neglect him and don’t understand his sensitive nature. To protect himself from this emotional blindness, he should delay settling down until later in life and, above all, refuse to give in to family pressure. Maturity should help him to break the unhealthy pattern of failure, misunderstanding, and masochism that characterized his early romantic relationships.

Adam Demos has a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. He is emotive and hypersensitive, making him especially vulnerable emotionally, since he is sometimes overwhelmed by his feelings and affects. Although he seeks an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom he could maintain blissful, smooth relations, he is sometimes met with disillusionment. Because his rather excessive sensitivity and his need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge his judgment and discernment, so he sometimes forms extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When he meets someone, he falls under the enchantment of his dream of ideal love and cannot keep himself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, he yields to another of his characteristic urges and loses himself in the individual who is so dear to him, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find himself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, his psyche is constructed in such a way as to make his sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before he takes on any major commitments, he should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates his intense love, for he may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. His tendency to believe in his illusions may mark him as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for him to find a different object for his affections, or a form of sublimation, because he tends to be so disappointed by his great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of his imagination procure artistic refinement for him, and he loves the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because his sensitivity also makes it easy for him to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties his peers are struggling with, he might also find it rewarding to commit himself to social work.

The outside appearance of Adam Demos is one of detachment and coolness, but on the inside he is a very complex individual who can be full of contradictions. Adam sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, so he tries to control not only his own feelings and urges, but also to manipulate those of his partners. He aspires to a profound spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning himself and yielding to the other terrifies him. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because Adam is guarded and somewhat secretive, he tends to be suspicious and uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although he is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, Adam will not express his feelings unless he is under some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of Adam’s emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, Adam is likely to be attracted to stormy and complicated relationships.

Adam Demos has a lively wit which gives him great agility and scope and a broad field of consciousness which enlivens his curiosity and makes him love variety and change. His mind is alert and his speech is full of verve, humor, and sometimes impudence. These abilities are great resources in communication, discussion, and debate. Adam Demos is a storehouse of information and ideas of every kind and delights in manipulating words and concepts, discovering new things, and sharpening his memory for trivial facts. This mental agitation could sometimes make him scattered, however, or lacking in coherence and discipline.

Adam Demos tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

Adam Demos has a conflicting situation which prevents him from developing his intellectual and imaginative faculties in a harmonious way. It may be somewhat difficult for him to integrate new ideas and concepts or to give his thought structure and coherence. He has a distaste for study, which might require a great deal of effort for him. He could harbor feelings of insecurity that are so acute that they may undermine his will and therefore his ability to compete. However, if he overcame these emotions, he would see that he has plenty of marketable skills and that many satisfactory solutions to his feelings of ineptitude and inadequacy are within his reach. Because this psychological complex may be related to childhood or adolescent opposition to parental or academic authority, he may not readily accept people who represent law enforcement agencies or power as an adult. He may display some hostility or vindictiveness toward them as a matter of principle. He should sometimes be careful of what he says.

Adam Demos has a great deal of intuition but sometimes has problems organizing his thought processes and making an intellectual commitment. The concepts of boundary and structure are inimical to his mind, which is open and all-encompassing, premonitory, and web-like. His thoughts may be verbally indeterminate, vague, and ill defined. He tends to understand or sense things globally, without always noticing their component parts. Usually, he can’t see the trees for the forest. In daily life, although his perceptions are lively and subtle, he may display a kind of absent-mindedness out of a fear of annoying people with his shrewdness or of fighting to assert himself. His imagination sometimes escapes from the confines of logic, cringing from a confrontation with reality. This unwillingness to face the real world may cause relationship or career challenges.