Alan Gomez searches for stability; he wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Alan Gomez has a taste for luxury and magnificence, for a dazzling social life and a distinguished career. When things are going well for him, he tends to think of himself as the center of the universe, an attitude that those close to him do not always appreciate. Although he is quite likely to succeed in his ambition to become wealthy and popular and lead a remarkable life in the outer world, his lack of moderation and overweening self-confidence expose him to some danger. His exaggerated optimism could create difficulties for him by causing him to make errors in judgment.

You have a temperament that is both sober and reserved, and you may even come across as harsh and austere to some. You were raised in an atmosphere of strict discipline and sobriety, and as a result, you grew up very fast. You have acquired a strong sense of self-sufficiency, and you tend to be rather uncompromising. You also have a touchy sense of your personal dignity and worth. It seems as though you are fighting an inner battle with your father or a father figure. The psychological models you received from your father or a father figure as a result of your interaction and your own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping your relationships with the outer world and society. As a result, you may have had to compensate for this lack with individual determination. However, you are skilled, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, and a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes you timid and hesitant. You sometimes feel as though you are only pretending to be a respectable, sober adult. You tend to be far too critical of yourself, and you seldom feel satisfied that you are living up to your ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead you to turn down the prominent career positions for which you are fully qualified. You are aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile, and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like you.

Alan Gomez was insecure, which caused him to crave order in his life and to prefer to do things according to a predetermined plan. Unfortunately, because his logic and vision tended to be somewhat short-sighted, it required a great effort for him to adapt to a situation. He was rigid, might struggle to make friends easily, and was sometimes wary of relations with those he was most attracted to. He was a gifted worrywart.

You are a very sensitive person who is very receptive to your surroundings. You almost seem to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over you, and it can sometimes be difficult for you to communicate your feelings to other people or engage in any structured, analytical thought. This may be because when you were a child, your teachers did not understand how to discipline you, and so you withdrew into yourself to protect yourself. It was then that you constructed your rich inner life, the part of you they could not invade, and cut many of your ties to the outside. Because you enjoyed indulging in your inner life, it may have been difficult for you to acquire an objective vision of reality. As a result, you may often create imaginary problems for yourself, regardless of the objective facts outside. Although your imagination is a source of inspiration and intuition, your fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for you to grasp the essence of your dreams and share them with other people. You are not at all combative, and this often hinders your efforts to fit into society and assert yourself productively. You are likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but your refusal to abandon your unattainable dreams is a psychological trap you have fallen into without realizing it. You must understand that by running away from your obligations and commitments, you only increase the feelings of guilt and incompetence which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once you free yourself from this pernicious process, you have a great deal of potential for fulfilling yourself in the outer world, either by devoting yourself to some sort of social work or by cultivating your considerable artistic talents.

Alan Gomez has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. He is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with his “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of himself, he is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness he has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for him at the outset. It is not easy for him to recognize himself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so he sometimes finds himself forced to construct and assert his own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Alan Gomez is an eloquent speaker and compulsive charmer with a powerful personal magnetism which may sometimes make him seem arrogant or smug. He cares a great deal about his reputation and will try hard to be admired and appreciated by the people around him. Fond of social events and parties, he likes to be the host, to entertain and charm a captive audience of guests. Indeed, he has special dramatic and artistic talents of the caliber necessary for success in film, theater, fashion, or art in general. He enjoys displaying his generosity, but he also displays a short temper at times; he is easily offended. His partner will have to be a brilliant person, strong and sure of themselves, devoted to him and capable of enhancing his reputation.

Alan Gomez has a sensitive personality. He may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. He is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in his behavior may be explained by emotional problems he may have experienced in infancy: his mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Although your demeanor is cool and distant, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself any emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for your inner self to be detached from this past life, and you sometimes have trouble reconciling the image you have of yourself as an adult with the one you acquired back then. The idea you have of yourself as an individual is related to the image your parents projected onto you as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and you are now an adult. It should be easy for you to rid yourself of these phantoms through self-work. You have the ability to overcome your mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve your goals. Nevertheless, you must not repress your sensitivity in order to succeed.

Alan Gomez has insecurities which can cause him to come off as haughty and arrogant. His vanity is easily wounded, and he abhor overt criticism.

Alan Gomez has a sensitive personality. When his sensitivity is touched, he reacts suddenly and excessively. He feels that his independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, but he is sometimes frustrated by his need to rely on family or friends. Moreover, he does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as his own. Likewise, he is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if he feared that it would doom him to eternal dependency. His ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship he had with his mother or a mother figure. Although he was dependent on her, she may have rejected him. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which his sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off his feelings of dependency, he sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, his reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

Alan Gomez is fairly shy, reserved, and discreet when it comes to matters of the heart. Even in intimate moments, he remains modest and does not always readily express his feelings. He is sensitive and giving, wishing to be of service to those he loves. He deserves to be made as happy as he makes his partner.

Alan Gomez’s birth chart indicates that he has an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. He distrusts his emotional urges and somewhat wary of his feelings, so he tries to rid himself of all partiality and get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Alan Gomez is prideful and strives to get ahead in the world. He would be unable to bear an ordinary position for himself and his family. He has dynamic social ambitions, which he would prefer be shared by potential partners. He is likely to find himself in a relationship with a brave and devoted person. But a gap between his aspirations and reality could be the main source of frustration in his life.

Alan Gomez falls in love with a person who is not in tune with his sensual and romantic wavelength. He is intellectually refined, practical, and realistic, more absorbed by the problems of daily life than be great sentimental adventures.

Cautious and reserved, you are drawn to those who share your cautiousness and reserve. You are hesitant to open yourself to others, partly because you have learned that relationships require some compromise, but also because you are sensitive and want to know someone intimately before investing your time and energy. When you are attracted to someone, you scrutinize their personality and life story, looking for clues about whether you would be compatible. When you are in love, you find solace in the arts. Music, literature, and painting are likely to be soothing to you, and you could succeed in any career that emphasizes order, practicality, and balance.

Alan Gomez has a fairly skeptical temperament which relies on remarkable analytic and critical faculties. He is sensitive and curious, a keen observer of facts who collects detailed information he will later pore over and analyze. This type of logical, rational mind is extremely efficient for elaborating methods or sorting and classifying information. However, it sometimes lacks flexibility or broad-mindedness.

Alan Gomez tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

Alan Gomez sometimes makes mistakes in judgment, and his understanding of things is not always in tune with social realities or prevailing opinion. His judgments tend to be hasty; his decisions are reckless. Moreover, he tends to overestimate his abilities and usually aims higher than might be realistic. Once an enterprise or project is underway, he may try to avoid obstacles by dodging certain duties. Because his vision of the world differs somewhat from social realities, he should be extremely careful and scrupulous in regard to legal matters, in order to avoid any complications of that type. He is sometimes slightly dishonest in his relations; he may break promises or attempt to duck responsibility. However, he should realize that such conduct toward other people is also a form of unconscious self-loathing. If he continues to behave in such a way, he is exposing himself to the same lack of sincerity from his partners.