Amir Johnson searches for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life, but his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

You have a strong need for control, which can be traced back to your childhood. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Amir Johnson has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but his energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish his multitude of dreams. He tends to live in osmosis with his environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on him. Usually, he understands phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so he is not in the habit of disciplining or shaping his thought processes. Like his thoughts, his personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, he may have some trouble asserting his individuality and making some personal contribution to society through his career. His tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like his refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for him.

Amir Johnson has an innate awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. He is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with his “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of himself, Amir sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of his instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness he has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for him at the outset. It is not easy for him to recognize himself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so he sometimes finds himself forced to assert and express his own identity in a way which may strike his contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.

Amir Johnson likes to learn about new things. He is always on the move, seeking new friends and experiences to keep him intellectually stimulated. He is curious about a wide range of subjects, and takes care to inform himself about them all. He enjoys talking to people and enjoys getting to know them. Sometimes, his thinking can be undisciplined, but he strives to improve this.

Amir Johnson has a sensitive personality. He may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. He is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in his behavior may be explained by emotional problems he may have experienced in infancy: his mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Although your demeanor is cool and distant, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and your refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself any emotional fulfillment whatsoever. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for your inner self to be detached from this past life, and you sometimes have trouble reconciling the image you have of yourself as an adult with the one you acquired back then. The idea you have of yourself as an individual is related to the image your parents projected onto you as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and you are now an adult. Through self-work, you can rid yourself of these phantoms. You have the ability to overcome your mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve your goals. Nevertheless, you must not repress your sensitivity in order to succeed.

Amir Johnson’s intellect is sometimes haunted by disturbing philosophical anguishes and a need for security. As a result, his adaptation to life and surroundings is somewhat complicated. Certain inhibitions may sometimes inhibit his intellectual activity.

Amir Johnson is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as his sensitivity is touched. Although he feels that his independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, he is sometimes frustrated by his need to rely on his family or friends. Moreover, he does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as his own. Likewise, he is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if he feared that it would doom him to eternal dependency. His ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship he had with his mother or a mother figure. Although he was dependent on her, she may have rejected him. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which his sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off his feelings of dependency, he sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, his reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

Amir Johnson’s personality is dominated by love and affectivity. He is subject to love at first sight, and his gallant heart sometimes leaps forth impulsively; his sensitivity is lively and powerful. Amorous rivalries and conquests may be a recurring theme throughout his life.

Amir Johnson’s birth chart indicates that he has an emotional function that is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. He enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with his gaze riveted on the future, Amir is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Amir Johnson has a contradictory character and is difficult to resist someone he likes. He is liable to choose someone unsuitable, uncommitted, or fickle. Parenthood might fulfill him and bring him maturity. As he becomes more peaceful, realistic, and consistent, his family life will come to the forefront.

Amir Johnson felt the need to rush into seduction with an almost juvenile fury. He became involved easily and quickly and parts ways just as painlessly. Bored by a relationship that was too serene, he was deeply aroused by argument and disagreement.

Amir Johnson may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive him to seek pleasure. His need for romantic fulfillment may compel him to marry, because he also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that he had indeed achieved success. However, privately, he might be less committed to certain obligations and duties.

You have a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. You are emotive and hypersensitive, making you especially vulnerable emotionally, since you are sometimes overwhelmed by your feelings and affects. Although you seek an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom you could maintain blissful, smooth relations, you are sometimes met with disillusionment. Because your rather excessive sensitivity and your need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge your judgment and discernment, so you sometimes form extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When you meet someone, you fall under the enchantment of your dream of ideal love and cannot keep yourself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, you yield to another of your characteristic urges and lose yourself in the individual who is so dear to you, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find yourself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, your psyche is constructed in such a way as to make your sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before you take on any major commitments, you should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates your intense love, for you may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Your tendency to believe in your illusions may mark you as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for you to find a different object for your affections, or a form of sublimation, because you tend to be so disappointed by your great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of your imagination procure artistic refinement for you, and you love the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because your sensitivity also makes it easy for you to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties your peers are struggling with, you might also find it rewarding to commit yourself to social work.

Amir Johnson is plodding but realistic and pragmatic. Because he is chiefly preoccupied with the practical aspects of things, he is especially apt to develop more efficient production concepts. Although his good judgment and common sense provide him with an excellent ability to handle the tangible world (he is certainly clever, and can quickly assess the tangible value of things), his thought processes might be relatively impervious to abstract concepts and spiritual awakenings.

Amir Johnson expresses his thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. He is fairly introverted and eager to discover and understand the inner world. An idealist, he looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.

Amir Johnson has a strong intuition which can be a great asset, but he has problems organizing his thoughts and making a commitment. Boundaries and structures are inimical to his mind, which is open and all-encompassing, premonitory, and web-like. His thoughts may be verbally indeterminate, vague, and ill defined. He tends to understand or sense things globally, without always noticing their component parts. Usually, he can’t see the trees for the forest. In daily life, although his perceptions are lively and subtle, he may display a kind of absent-mindedness, out of a fear of annoying people with his shrewdness or of fighting to assert himself. His imagination sometimes escapes from the confines of logic, cringing from a confrontation with reality. This unwillingness to face the real world may cause relationship or career challenges.