Angelnae searches for stability; she wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often fruitless, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believes to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Angelnae,

You have a paternal complex, which can lead to some trouble finding your identity. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Angelnae’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, she has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. Her unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In her relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, also grates on her nerves. She finds it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

Angelnae is lively and expressive, with a personality that is sometimes agitated but straightforward. Unconscious feelings of insecurity compel her to act and sometimes to seek the admiration of others. As a result, she is unable to bear idleness and routine, and she is in search of perpetual excitement. Her reactions to others are highly individual and depend on the mood she is in at any given moment. A person of decision, a businessperson or an athlete, she often personifies boldness and impetuosity. Her love life is liable to be fiery, as it obeys the imperatives of her desire for freedom and independence, and her need for change.

Angelnae’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Angelnae has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Angelnae is a cheerful, expansive, pleasant associate to have. She is extremely generous (sometimes to a fault!) and gives of herself and her belongings unstintingly. This positive psychological outlook is the result of a happy childhood and especially an extremely beneficial maternal influence in infancy. Angelnae is quite likely to be a professional success; her vision of the world is perfectly adapted to prevailing opinion, and her urges and desires for personal expansion usually elicit a positive reaction from society. By old age, her good reputation and prominence may have earned her fame.

Angelnae stands behind a cool facade, hiding her sensitive nature behind a conservative exterior. She has a deep respect for tradition and convention and likes to follow the rules. Because she needs stability to alleviate her feelings of frustration and sometimes emotional dependency, she has great faith in contracts which seal relationships. Her ties to her past are fairly strong. They are a source of reassurance and safety, because her parents likely gave a lot to her.

Angelnae often keeps her emotions to herself, preferring to conserve them for those that she cares for. She enjoys being swept up in the moment and is often drawn to intense sexual encounters. Her relationships are often based on shared desires, as she seeks to understand the inner workings of others. She would be especially satisfied in a career that allowed her to interact with those in need.

Angelnae regarded love in a new way after being taught by her family, social class, and religion. She desired to experiment with a new style of experiencing love, which may have been a form of escapism. Her aspirations encouraged her to cast off conventional romantic practices and customs and embark on new adventures.

Angelnae’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Angelnae is determined and competent in her career but less so in her private life. Her strength of will may scare some people away. She is subject to intense passions, but they are rarely happy. Sometimes she tries to repress her feelings, and at others, her love life is crippled by fate.

Angelnae observes as you struggle with your emotions, disrupting your inner balance. You were prone to various crises in your past relationships due to your fear of commitment. With maturity and experience, Angelnae believes you can overcome this fear and enjoy a healthy, independent social life. Meanwhile, you can fulfill your need for love and companionship in your home.

Angelnae has the fiery, importunate nature of a fervent lover. Indeed, affairs of the heart are one of her main purposes in life. Her personal charm and magnetism give her nearly irresistible powers of seduction, and nearly every one of her well-aimed attempts at conquest leads to the fulfillment and satisfaction of her desires. Due to her impulsiveness and impatience to initiate new encounters, her approach to members of the other sex may sometimes lack delicacy.

Angelnae has an ardent and amorous character, and her relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, she is often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, her love life may be subject to some instability. She is generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate her. Her greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although she merges her ego entirely into the couple, she is likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If her partner charms and captivates her long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with her; otherwise, she is likely to yield to her need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for her. Midlife may be a turning point for her from this point of view. Her contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Her behavior enables her to remain aloof, to commit herself only halfway without consciously admitting it to herself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when she loses interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps her from forming stable relationships. Indeed, she is tormented by the struggle between her undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, her romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by her conviction that her partner has become an obstacle to her individual progress. Because she thinks of love as a restraint, she may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, she will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, she is also likely to meet “the one” who inspires her to initiate a change in her behavior.

Angelnae considers the input from her subjective and emotional state as static which she tries to tune out to go straight to the essence of knowledge. As a result, regardless of her field of study, she tries to obtain perspective. She will elaborate a thought on the basis of fairly cold, abstract logic, supported by sober, concise, and immaculate reasoning. Her choice areas of study could be mathematics, philosophy, legislation, or political science. Ideologies, theories, and any other system of reasoning could serve as “food for thought” for her.

Angelnae does not express her thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. She tends to be subjective, seeking to know herself better through a process of introversion.

Angelnae’s intellectual faculties and wit are sometimes slowed down because they are turned inward. Because she tends to be oriented toward herself, she rarely tries to communicate with others for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, she sometimes feels misunderstood. Moreover, it seems difficult for her to express the complexity of her inner perceptions.