Ash Menin is patient. She is fond of routine, ritual, and any other events or ceremonies which mark the passage of time and the seasons. She tries to be as pragmatic as possible and unconsciously senses that her relationship with material things will be the best foundation for her self-development and individuation. As a result, she is attached to her possessions and will make every effort to cling to them.

You have an inborn awareness of the void and the futility of existence. Sometimes you are disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and you tend to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as your intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with your “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of yourself, you are sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of life instinct and feel an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness you have been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for you at the outset. It is not easy for you to recognize yourself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so you sometimes find yourself forced to construct and assert your own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Ash Menin is pragmatic and realistic. She evaluates people and things according to practical, common-sense criteria instead of abstract concepts. A sensualist and lover of luxury, she has a penchant for material comfort and takes great joy in physical pleasures. In relation to others, socially and privately, she likes to build stable relationships and is not especially fond of change. Her warmth gives her a great deal of ease when meeting people, as clients (for business purposes), but her close relations also benefit from this affection and her ability to express her feelings naturally and openly.

Ash Menin is a cheerful and communicative associate. His expansive nature is related to his gratification in childhood, which probably occurred in favorable surroundings with a mother or mother figure who was loving, indulgent, and generous. He is extremely kind-hearted himself and gives of himself and his wealth unstintingly. His bountifulness, which many people appreciate somewhat selfishly, may arise from a confusion between his desires and reality.

Although your demeanor is cool and distant, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and your refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. You may have suffered rejection in your infancy, and, as a result, lacked the parental love which is essential to the cohesion of a personality and identity. In order to feel secure, and to protect yourself from ever suffering rejection or abandonment again, you withdrew into yourself and developed your aloofness as a defense mechanism. When you finally let down your defenses and allow yourself to express your feelings, you tend to become impassioned and exalted. You are fairly introverted and egocentric and have a powerful sense of your own identity.

Although Ash Menin is pragmatic and relatively realistic, she is sometimes tormented by an insidious feeling of insecurity which interferes with her ability to grasp reality. Change unnerves her, and at certain times, she tends to cling to old-fashioned customs or lifestyles. Insecurities might cause her to repress her emotional needs.

Ash Menin, although your sensitive imagination provides an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, can be less helpful and positive when it comes to your self-assertion as responsible and self-sufficient in matters of a relationship. Although you are extremely romantic, you sometimes do not see others the way they really are.

Ash Menin is looking for the ideal love and tends to idealize her friends and lovers. A bizarre character, she may prefer to dream of her soulmate instead of making love to one; she is more in love with the idea of love than anything else. Her idealism may hide a fear of truly committing herself to a relationship; she tries to intellectualize everything. In time, two options will seem clear to her: an amorous friendship based on shared ideas and intellectual exchange, or an open relationship, free of all constraints except mutual respect.

Ash Menin’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Someone like Ash Menin is gentle, sweet and charming. They enjoy making people happy and want to always do what is best for them. They are hesitant at first, but they eventually find the right person to be with. They enjoy country life and good cooking, but they also thrive in having family around them. They may have a strong artistic talent.

Ash Menin is hesitant and unstable when it comes to romantic relationships, and has a tumultuous love life. As a partner, she reaches out and then pulls back, giving and then refusing. Actually, she is far more in love with her liberty and her dreams of love than with reality. She sometimes yields to strange attractions which appear incomprehensible to her once she has recovered her senses. Only a friendly lover, who can be a loyal and understanding companion, can provide her with complete emotional stability.

You are an ardent and amorous person, and your relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you.

Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.

Ash Menin has a rather irrational mind and a voracious intellect, which is usually subject to the rule of her prolific imagination. Although she is likely to have flashes of intuition which may prove to be correct, her thought processes are sometimes messy and confused. Her mind, which is oriented in many different directions at the same time, is ruled by her emotions and feelings. In tune with psychic and parapsychic phenomena, her thinking requires only the adjunct of structure to rise from the level of a blurry, uncertain, undifferentiated mass to that of a really significant vision with a grip on the real world.

Ash Menin expresses her thoughts and ideas carefully, but with a relative lack of spontaneity. She is rather introverted and looks inside herself for the solutions to the problems she encounters in life. Because she tends to mistrust customary thought patterns, her opinion is usually highly personal.

Ash Menin seems to be oriented inward, rarely trying to communicate with others for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, she sometimes feels misunderstood and finds it difficult to express the complexity of her inner perceptions.