bbjess seems passive and more or less resigned to her fate, including her insecurity. Actually, she is fairly introverted and withdrawn, trying to make sense out of her inner confusion and fathom her inner depths.

BBJESS

You are an energetic and vigorous person with a strong need to assert your individuality. Your attitudes and actions are actually motivated by an unconscious desire for power, which incites you to rush into action despite the frequent threat of risk and danger. Because you have little control over your energy and impulses, you sometimes injure yourself bodily or start arguments without really having meant to do so. You have a short temper and would do well to learn to control your recklessness, which exposes you to a great deal of unnecessary conflict and adversity. You are also likely to start projects which are not really appropriate to you, only to be forced to quit soon after. Before you make any important decision, you must learn to stop and ask yourself if what you are about to do is really positive for you.

You have an inborn awareness of the void and the shallowness of existence. You are sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tend to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as your intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with your “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of yourself, you are sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness you have been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for you at the outset. It is not easy for you to recognize yourself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so you sometimes find yourself forced to construct and assert your own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

An eloquent speaker and compulsive charmer, bbjess has a powerful personal magnetism which may sometimes make her seem arrogant or smug. She cares a great deal about her reputation and will try hard to be admired and appreciated by the people around her. Fond of social events and parties, bbjess likes to be the host, to entertain and charm a captive audience of guests. Indeed, she has special dramatic and artistic talents of the caliber necessary for success in film, theater, fashion, or art in general. She enjoys displaying her generosity, but she also displays a short temper at times; she is easily offended. Her partner will have to be a brilliant person, strong and sure of themselves, devoted to her and capable of enhancing her reputation.

bbjess’ intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

You are emotional and tend to react suddenly and excessively as soon as your independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are touched. Although you feel that your values of independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental, you are sometimes frustrated by your need to rely on your family or friends. Moreover, you do not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as your own. Likewise, you are sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if you feared that it would doom you to eternal dependency. Your ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship you had with your mother or a mother figure. Although you were dependent on them, they may have rejected you. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which your sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off your feelings of dependency, you sometimes tend to become destructive. Based on denial, your reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

bbjess does not always readily reveal herself, and she tends to protect her sensitivity. She has a penchant for intense emotions. Sexuality is a prominent element in her life, and her relationships, which are usually passionate, are motivated by her desires. She likes to understand the hidden side of people, their secret or unconfessed motivations. She would thus find a career which placed her in contact with troubled people especially rewarding.

BBjess is sometimes afraid to love. The world of her feelings is characterized by a certain chill and restraint. But she is not unfeeling; on the contrary, her sensitivity is so delicate that she is careful to protect it. Her determination to maintain control of her feelings and force her emotions to obey the laws of reason may stand in the way of intimacy and joy.

bbjess’ birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Your sensitivity and ideals will cause you difficulty in finding the perfect harmony you seek in love. You are proud and delighted to shine and will not settle for anything less than a starring role. As a result, you demand quite a bit of your partner. Whereas you see marriage as an opportunity for social advancement, you are liable to strike up with a mate more interested in ideas than success (unless they are always busy with their friends). Nonetheless, after age 40, you may find harmonious fulfillment.

bbjess is ambitious and quite aware of her own worth, and there is nothing romantic or sentimental about her attitude to relationships. If she married, her relationship would have to be a smooth-running ‘business’ that serves her social ambitions, but this is not necessarily the best route to emotional fulfillment and happiness.

Cautious and reserved, you are sometimes unwilling to open yourself to others if you are not sure of being accepted. You will always hang back somewhat from your emotional urges, parceling out your expressions of affection, because you have learned – sometimes at your expense – that even the most harmonious relationships require some compromise. For you, “good fences make good neighbors,” and well-marked boundaries can prevent future suffering. Thus, even when you are in love, you remain fairly circumspect. When you find yourself attracted to a partner, you privately engage in a careful analysis of their personality and life story, endeavoring to know them profoundly, to see whether you are likely to be able to share your life and future with them. As a result of your sensitivity, you have a profound affinity for all of the arts. Music, literature, painting, and graphic arts are likely to enrich your existence and make it pleasant. You have a natural talent for creative expression, which could take you in any direction – be it a career in the arts, a career in business, or anything in between.

Bbjess is a flexible individual, and her intellectual faculties draw on sudden flashes of pure intuition as well as logical, rational thought. She has progressive, inventive, and sometimes utopian ideas; they usually relate to human or social problems. She always strives to be in the vanguard, creating a better world for the future.