Bill Haslam is searching for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Bill Haslam, you have a paternal complex. Your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

The two celestial “lights” (the sun and the moon) were symmetrically aligned when I was born. This is a sign of harmony between the masculine and feminine archetypes, which is beneficial. It’s the source of balance and understanding between the two main psychological realms that compose my personality. I enjoy a positive complementarity and understanding between the conscious and unconscious aspects of my psyche, between my determination and my routines, between my drive for self-assertion and my receptivity, my ideal and my sensitivity. My parents almost certainly reflected a positive image of the marriage relationship to me, and it’s likely that they encouraged me to develop my own individuality. As a result, I was and am able to be comfortable with myself as I am, instead of striving to attain my parents’ ideal. This has definitely contributed to the maintenance of a good relationship with them and the rest of the family. In my emotional relationships with my peers, one of the effects of the masculine/feminine harmony is that the images my ego projects on the other are especially constructive. The bonds of the relationship are not felt to be constraints, the energy which flows between the two people is a source of mutual happiness, not regret. No major personal conflicts are projected onto the “other” – that is, the significant other.

Bill Haslam, you have a great potential for creative, constructive accomplishments; however, it is sometimes difficult for you to gain access to this part of yourself. You are confident in yourself and life but may tend to be nonchalant. You sometimes need a little stimulation to get yourself rolling and take some initiative. Your optimism and inner certainty do not always drive you to give your utmost efforts to achieve a goal. The communications skills you possess are an advantage as well as a handicap. You make use of your theatrical gifts, convincing eloquence, and ability to listen. The best careers for you would be teaching, communications, philosophy, the legal profession, theater, and public relations.

Bill Haslam has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but his energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish his multitude of dreams. He tends to live in osmosis with his environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on him. Usually, he understands phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so he is not in the habit of disciplining or shaping his thought processes. Like his thoughts, his personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, he may have some trouble asserting his individuality and making some personal contribution to society through his career. His tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like his refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for him.

Bill Haslam’s complex and sometimes rather extremist personality is rooted in an instinctual drive which dwarfs mere rationalism. He finds the dark side of existence alluring and is attracted to mystery and the occult. He delightedly immerse himself in the depths of human experience, stretching his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual resources to their maximum.

Bill Haslam, physical and mental freedom are vital to you. Your youth and home may have been of the rootless, wandering type, which could have given you a taste for movement and independence. You need to be aware that your life has a purpose and hunt for it in various belief systems, both traditional and new age. In fact, you have an unmistakable gift for philosophy. The faraway appeals to you, and travel is likely to be an important aspect of your life.

Bill Haslam has a lively and curious intelligence, the very opposite of empty rhetoric and studiousness. He is agile and adaptable and can not only analyze difficult situations objectively but also demonstrate a profound comprehension when faced with a psychological problem.

Although you maintain a cool and distant demeanor, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and your refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. You may have suffered rejection in your infancy, and, as a result, lacked the parental love which is essential to the cohesion of a personality and identity. In order to feel secure, and to protect yourself from ever suffering rejection or abandonment again, you withdrew into yourself and developed your aloofness as a defense mechanism. When you finally let down your defenses and allow yourself to express your feelings, you tend to become impassioned and exalted. You are fairly introverted and egocentric and have a powerful sense of your own identity.

Bill Haslam struggles to find a way to balance his personal desires with the obligations and commitments that society puts on him. Obstacles and hindrances on his path to personal and social development often make him feel depressed. He often has a pessimistic view of society and its possibilities, and he may brood bitterly about the frustrations he experiences in fulfilling his goals.

Bill Haslam has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate he imagines for himself is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between his splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. He should be careful not to confuse his romantic ideal with reality and become aware that his tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from himself.

Bill Haslam’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. He enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with his gaze riveted on the future, he is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Bill Haslam, relatively unstable in your love life, may display chronic indecision. Your bonds could easily shatter, or present you with problems of adaptation and understanding. You must honor your taste for liberty. If you feel stifled, you may break off a relationship or run away from it.

Bill Haslam has a preference for people of some social distinction. This can be a problem because they can be demanding, and they may look down on him. If he chooses someone from a less privileged background, they are likely to be avid for social advancement. They are liable to encourage him to make continual efforts to achieve the prominence they feel is appropriate. His domestic life may be peppered with personality clashes.

Bill Haslam has an ardent and amorous character, and his relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, he is often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, his love life may be subject to some instability. He is generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate him. His greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although he merges his ego entirely into the couple, he is likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If his partner charms and captivates him long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with him; otherwise, he is likely to yield to his need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for him.

Midlife may be a turning point for him from this point of view. His contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. His behavior enables him to remain aloof, to commit himself only halfway without consciously admitting it to himself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when he loses interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps him from forming stable relationships. Indeed, he is tormented by the struggle between his undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, his romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by his conviction that his partner has become an obstacle to his individual progress. Because he thinks of love as a restraint, he may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, he will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, he is also likely to meet “the one” who inspires him to initiate a change in his behavior.

You have a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. You are emotive and hypersensitive, making you especially vulnerable emotionally, since you are sometimes overwhelmed by your feelings and affects. Although you seek an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom you could maintain blissful, smooth relations, you are sometimes met with disillusionment. Because your rather excessive sensitivity and your need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge your judgment and discernment, so you sometimes form extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When you meet someone, you fall under the enchantment of your dream of ideal love and cannot keep yourself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, you yield to another of your characteristic urges and lose yourself in the individual who is so dear to you, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find yourself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, your psyche is constructed in such a way as to make your sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before you take on any major commitments, you should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates your intense love, for you may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Your tendency to believe in your illusions may mark you as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for you to find a different object for your affections, or a form of sublimation, because you tend to be so disappointed by your great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of your imagination procure artistic refinement for you, and you love the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because your sensitivity also makes it easy for you to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties your peers are struggling with, you might also find it rewarding to commit yourself to social work.

Bill Haslam is powerfully ruled by his determination and vital needs. His intellectual abilities come to the forefront when his purpose is to communicate his ideal and plot his action or strategy. He can be both logical and astute and have gifts for theorizing but may sometimes lack perspective.

Bill Haslam does not express his thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. He tends to be subjective, seeking to know himself better through a process of introversion.

Bill Haslam feels misunderstood and complex.

Bill Haslam

You have a mind with an insatiable appetite for knowledge and an exceptional ability to learn. Without trying too hard, you could probably accumulate encyclopedic erudition. Your intellectual curiosity is such that it is sometimes a drawback. You sometimes have trouble limiting yourself to a single subject without being distracted by a multitude of others. Discipline and a conscious effort at organization will be of great help if you want to deepen your learning and judgment. Once your intellectual faculties are disciplined, you are likely to succeed in any of the following fields: teaching, historical scholarship, advertising, writing (journalistic or literary), travel, etc: – in fact, communication in any form.

Bill Haslam has a great deal of intuition but sometimes has problems organizing his thought processes and making an intellectual commitment. The concepts of boundary and structure are inimical to his mind, which is open and all-encompassing, premonitory, and web-like. His thoughts may be verbally indeterminate, vague, and ill defined. He tends to understand or sense things globally, without always noticing their component parts. Usually, he can’t see the trees for the forest. In daily life, although his perceptions are lively and subtle, he may display a kind of absent-mindedness, out of a fear of annoying people with his shrewdness or of fighting to assert himself. His imagination sometimes escapes from the confines of logic, cringing from a confrontation with reality. This unwillingness to face the real world may cause relationship or career challenges.