Brian Esperon is fairly individualistic. Although he sometimes mingles with groups for their competitive atmosphere, he will rarely join in them wholeheartedly, preferring to work on his own projects independently. A lack of confidence in himself may sometimes create challenges in relationships. His lack of self-esteem may also sometimes inhibit the full expression of his generosity and love.

You have a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding your identity. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Brian Esperon is a caring and sensitive person who is deeply human. He is sociable and devoted to others, and his childhood was an important time in his life. He still identifies with vivid childhood memories; they are the basis for his reveries, for his extreme sensitivity, and for habits which he may be slow to break. However, Brian thrives in the shelter of a family setting, soothed by the presence of a spouse and children. He is fond of security and routine; being somewhat impressionable and anxious, he may have trouble adjusting to situations which are unfamiliar.

Brian Esperon has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate he imagines for himself is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between his splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. He should be careful not to confuse his romantic ideal with reality and become aware that his tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from himself.

Brian Esperon’s birth chart indicates that he has an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of his emotional urges and somewhat wary of his feelings, he tries to rid himself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

According to the foregoing, it appears that you are torn between different tendencies in your character. An inner conflict exists between your desire to shine and your need for attachment, between your social ambitions and your longings for security, between your natural selfishness and your altruism. As a result, you are likely to become attached to a prominent person you can be proud of. Your own social position may disappoint you, but the satisfaction you derive from your loved ones or your children, should you choose to have them, will make up for your feeling you have lived vicariously.

Brian Esperon enjoys spending time with new people. He thrives on baroque adventures and seeks out partners who will help him rise in society. He is quite skilled at charming people who are more accomplished than him, and may help him climb the social ladder.

You Brian Esperon are hypersensitive and tend to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of your first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. You are exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. You will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. You are sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. You usually hide your emotional reactions or do not even allow them to reach the level of your consciousness, in an effort to protect your sensitivity, which you see as your weak point. You are fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, you will disguise your strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside you, and you feel unworthy of the love which is lavished on you. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of your desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, your fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of your romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that you learn how to forget yourself occasionally in the other.

You are an ardent and amorous person, and your relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you.

Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.

You have a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. You are emotive and hypersensitive, making you especially vulnerable emotionally, since you are sometimes overwhelmed by your feelings and affects. Although you seek an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom you could maintain blissful, smooth relations, you are sometimes met with disillusionment. Because your rather excessive sensitivity and your need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge your judgment and discernment, so you sometimes form extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When you meet someone, you fall under the enchantment of your dream of ideal love and cannot keep yourself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, you yield to another of your characteristic urges and lose yourself in the individual who is so dear to you, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find yourself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, your psyche is constructed in such a way as to make your sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before you take on any major commitments, you should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates your intense love, for you may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Your tendency to believe in your illusions may mark you as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for you to find a different object for your affections, or a form of sublimation, because you tend to be so disappointed by your great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of your imagination procure artistic refinement for you, and you love the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because your sensitivity also makes it easy for you to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties your peers are struggling with, you might also find it rewarding to commit yourself to social work.

From the outside, Brian Esperon seems detached and aloof. However, on the inside, he is an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because he sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, he tries to control not only his own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of his partners. He aspires to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning himself and yielding to the other terrifies him. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because he is guarded and somewhat secretive, he tends to be suspicious and is especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although he is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, Brian will not express his feelings unless he is subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of Brian’s emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, he is likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Brian Esperon was powerfully ruled by his determination and vital needs. His intellectual abilities came to the forefront when his purpose was to communicate his ideal and plot his action or strategy. He could be both logical and astute, and had gifts for theorizing, but may sometimes lack perspective.

Brian Esperon does not express his thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. He tends to be subjective, seeking to know himself better through a process of introversion.

Brian Esperon’s intellectual faculties and wit are sometimes slowed down because he is turned inward. Because he tends to be oriented toward himself, he rarely tries to communicate with others for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, he sometimes feels misunderstood. Moreover, it seems difficult for him to express the complexity of his inner perceptions.

Brian Esperon is a person who usually behaves kindly and persuasively with others. He has a certain charm and is skilled at speaking convincingly, which helps him smooth over the asperities of what he has to say in social situations. However, in situations where he must compete or deal with hostility, Brian may be somewhat at a loss for how to behave. He has an undeniable gift for oratory, which could be applied to a communications-related occupation or to artistic expression (as a stage or screen actor). Writing and dance, two other arts which associate expression and movement, might also be fields in which Brian would excel.

Brian Esperon has a psychological complex which prevents him from integrating new ideas and concepts or from giving his thought structure and coherence. He has a distaste for study, which might require a great deal of effort for him. He harbors feelings of insecurity that are so acute that they may undermine his will and therefore his ability to compete. However, if he overcame these emotions, he would see that he has plenty of marketable skills and that many satisfactory solutions to his feelings of ineptitude and inadequacy are within his reach. Because this psychological complex may be related to childhood or adolescent opposition to parental or academic authority, he may not readily accept people who represent law enforcement agencies or power as an adult. He may display some hostility or vindictiveness toward them as a matter of principle. He should sometimes be careful of what he says.

Brian Esperon has a definite taste for expression and communication. He cannot survive without giving voice to his thoughts and speaking to other people. He delights in his own power to persuade, captivate, and sway an audience with his words. Especially attracted to anything new and original, he immediately grasps the utility and value of the latest technology or philosophy, no matter how complicated it may be and has a knack for explaining it to the uninitiated and popularizing it. Because he is fairly high strung, he may have trouble concentrating on a single subject for very long, unless it is a source of intellectual fascination or discovery. He may have to make some effort to overcome this inconsistency. His open-mindedness gives him creativity, which is a valuable commodity in many occupations: teaching, communications, advertising, etc. Regardless of the career he chooses, his personal development will involve intellectual activity and progress.

Brian Esperon has a great deal of intuition but sometimes has problems organizing his thought processes and making an intellectual commitment. The concepts of boundary and structure are inimical to his mind, which is open and all-encompassing, premonitory, and web-like. His thoughts may be verbally indeterminate, vague, and ill defined. He tends to understand or sense things globally, without always noticing their component parts. Usually, he can’t see the trees for the forest. In daily life, although his perceptions are lively and subtle, he may display a kind of absent-mindedness out of a fear of annoying people with his shrewdness or of fighting to assert himself. His imagination sometimes escapes from the confines of logic, cringing from a confrontation with reality. This unwillingness to face the real world may cause relationship or career challenges.