Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Ellie Zeiler is trying to overcome her feelings of insecurity. To do so, she needs a home: a dwelling, a territory, or perhaps a safe space or setting where she can rest, and let down her systems of defense against the outer world, which she finds aggressive and hostile. She is ready to make some sacrifices in order to maintain and consolidate the structure she has chosen. True inner security, based on real knowledge of herself, her abilities, and her shortcomings, her strengths and her weaknesses would no doubt be most effective and would allow her to remain open to the varieties of experience offered by the world.

Ellie Zeiler has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.

Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Ellie Zeiler’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may sometimes be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, she has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. Her unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In her relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, might also annoy her. She could find it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

Ellie Zeiler does not always feel in tune with society’s rules and conventions. The mask of sociability most well-adapted people wear is difficult for her to assume, and it is hard for her to act out the roles expected of her as a normal member of the community. The usual social values and rewards, like money, respect, and prestige, only mildly interest her. Her refusal or inability to play the social game may make it hard for her to find a job, which may have negative consequences on her financial and legal status. Reluctant and unwilling to adapt to the demands of social life, she sometimes unwittingly makes mistakes when a new project is in the planning stages. For example, she may leave gaps in a job application, botch up an interview with a prospective employer, or make a big mistake when bidding for a contract. But her financial difficulties may clear up when her emotional ones do.

Ellie Zeiler has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. She is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as her intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with her “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of herself, she is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it.

This special consciousness she has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for her at the outset. It is not easy for her to recognize herself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so she sometimes finds herself forced to construct and assert her own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Because Ellie is fond of method and order, she usually prefers to do things according to a pre-established plan. Her behavior mirrors this tendency. She will adopt relatively strict models elaborated on the basis of logical or moral reasons. She does not readily express her personal feelings or emotions and may sometimes strike others as a rigid person. However, her conscientiousness and application make her thrive in a work environment, and she tends to treat social engagements and activities as a form of duty. Her natural taste for clarity, detail, and technique would make her successful as a scientific researcher or high-tech designer.

Ellie’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Ellie Zeiler has a sensitive nature. Although she may sometimes have trouble controlling her emotional reactions, they are nevertheless a source of vital energy for a constructive passion and may make an extremely positive contribution to her career. In relations with other people, she is quite friendly; she willingly reaches out to people and knows how to listen to their desires and their problems.

Optimistic and happy to be alive, Ellie Zeiler is a cheerful, communicative, and pleasant associate to have. Her expansive nature is related to her gratification in childhood, which probably occurred in favorable surroundings with a mother or mother figure who was loving, indulgent, and generous. She is extremely kind-hearted herself and gives of herself and her wealth unstintingly. Her bountifulness, which many people appreciate somewhat selfishly, may arise from a confusion between her desires and reality.

Ellie Zeiler’s sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Love and Sensuality:

Ellie Zeiler has a sensual and affectionate nature which is sensitive to physical attraction. This type of sensitivity, combined with her productive urges, may be expressed in an artistic form. As for her feelings, they are usually slow to take root. But once she is conquered by love, she forms a deep and lasting bond. Although she is loyal, she may also display a tendency to be somewhat possessive.

Ellie Zeiler’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. Ellie enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, Ellie is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Ellie Zeiler is panicky about what other people think of her, and as a result, prefers to blend in with the wallpaper. However, she is full of qualities, not the least of which is devotion. She does tend to be somewhat fanatical about perfection and detail. In love, her inhibitions might cause her to pass up many opportunities. But she may also find happiness with someone who is as sensitive or shy as she is, who would understand her and make her feel seen.

A sensual person, Ellie enjoys comfort, in emotional as well as material terms. She appreciates solidity and security. She is extremely attached to her “belongings,” which is how she thinks of her lover, home, and, if she chooses to have them, children.

Somewhat awkward and shy with some, Ellie may be dazzled by physical beauty. However, once she has chosen her life partner, she will prove to be an extremely loyal mate.

Ellie has an ardent and amorous character, and her relationships with the other sex are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, Ellie is often more in love with the idea of love than with her partners. As a result, her love life may be subject to some instability. Ellie is generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate her. Love is often a matter of luck with Ellie. Even when a relationship falls apart, she does not see the experience as a failure or a tragedy; instead, Ellie seems to learn valuable lessons from her mistakes. Psychologically, her emotion contributes positively and efficiently to her evolution. From another standpoint, her acute sensitivity predisposes her to original and subtle tastes; Ellie is so receptive to beauty and attached to the concepts of truth and balance that they may all combine to yield remarkable creative potential.

Mental and Intellect:

Ellie has a rather irrational mind and a voracious intellect, which is usually subject to the rule of her prolific imagination. Although she is likely to have flashes of intuition which may prove to be correct, her thought processes are sometimes messy and confused. Her mind, which is oriented in many different directions at the same time, is ruled by her emotions and feelings. In tune with psychic and parapsychic phenomena, her thinking requires only the adjunct of structure to rise from the level of a blurry, uncertain, undifferentiated mass to that of a really significant vision with a grip on the real world.

Ellie tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. Her thoughts are usually structured, and her reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

Ellie Zeiler has a lively and agile spirit. She is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of dogmatism and prejudice. As a result of her great mental vitality, she tends to have an opinion on every subject, but she does not always have the patience necessary to examine a subject in-depth.

Ellie enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuse herself with witty remarks, satire, and controversy. If she learned to control her flow of words and elaborate her thoughts more, she could make a talented communicator. Because she is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform her ideas, she is sometimes misunderstood.

Ellie is often blind to the rashness of her judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around her. If she were to succeed in disciplining her mind somewhat, she would have innumerable opportunities to apply her communications skills to a great career. However, she would do well to be careful of her nerves.