Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Jayla Walton is trying to overcome her feelings of insecurity. To do so, she needs a home: a dwelling, a territory, or perhaps a safe space or setting where she can rest, and let down her systems of defense against the outer world, which she finds aggressive and hostile. She is ready to make some sacrifices in order to maintain and consolidate the structure she has chosen. True inner security, based on real knowledge of herself, her abilities, and her shortcomings, her strengths and her weaknesses would no doubt be most effective and would allow her to remain open to the varieties of experience offered by the world.

Jayla Walton may be subject to mood swings, going from phases of frenzy combined with a feeling of omnipotence and exaltation to phases of apathy and inertia. During Jayla’s “highs,” her behavior is vigorous and dynamic, but it is also likely to be somewhat excessive. These periods tend to be interspersed with “lows,” phases of sluggishness and inhibition, which compensate for Jayla’s immense need to assert herself as an individual. How can Jayla find a way out of this vicious cycle which uses up so much of her energy? Jayla would have to understand that the source of her attitudes and behavior is an unconscious desire for power. We suggest that Jayla meditate upon power, skills, mastery, challenge, desire, and need, her brothers (or brother substitutes, such as friends, cousins, or classmates) – who are key figures – and her adversaries. This should enlighten Jayla. Of course, once Jayla has a clear awareness of her career ambitions and profound desires, she is sure to have plenty of energy to accomplish them.

Jayla Walton has a taste for luxury and magnificence, for a dazzling social life and a distinguished career. When things are going well for Jayla, Jayla tends to think of Jayla as the center of the universe, an attitude which those close to Jayla do not always appreciate. Although Jayla is quite likely to succeed in Jayla’s ambition to become wealthy and popular and lead a remarkable life in the outer world, Jayla’s lack of moderation and overweening self-confidence expose Jayla to some danger. Jayla’s exaggerated optimism could create difficulties by causing Jayla to make errors in judgment.

Jayla has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. Jayla is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as her intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with her “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of herself, Jayla is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it.

This special consciousness Jayla has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for Jayla at the outset. It is not easy for Jayla to recognize herself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so Jayla sometimes finds herself forced to construct and assert her own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Because Jayla Walton is fond of method and order, she usually prefers to do things according to a pre-established plan. Her behavior mirrors this tendency. She will adopt relatively strict models elaborated on the basis of logical or moral reasons. She does not readily express her personal feelings or emotions and may sometimes strike others as a rigid person. However, her conscientiousness and application make her thrive in a work environment, and she tends to treat social engagements and activities as a form of duty. Her natural taste for clarity, detail, and technique would make her successful as a scientific researcher or high-tech designer.

Jayla Walton’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Jayla Walton is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as her sensitivity is touched. Although she feels that her independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, she is sometimes frustrated by her need to rely on her family or friends. Moreover, she does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as her own. Likewise, she is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if she feared that it would doom her to eternal dependency. Her ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship she had with her mother or a mother figure. Although she was dependent on them, they may have rejected her. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which her sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off her feelings of dependency, she sometimes tend to become destructive. Based on denial, her reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

Love and Sensuality:

Jayla has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate Jayla imagines for herself is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between Jayla’s splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. Jayla should be careful not to confuse her romantic ideal with reality and become aware that Jayla’s tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from herself.

Jayla Walton’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. Jayla enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with their gaze riveted on the future, Jayla is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Jayla Walton must straddle two important principles of her personality. She is both sensitive and intelligent, as well as hypersensitive and hyperemotive, which may inspire her to try to relieve others of their suffering and carry the whole world on her shoulders. The return from her dreams to reality is always traumatic for her psyche. It will be difficult for her to find fulfillment alone; aware of this, she will seek out someone who can protect her, as well as act as a guide.

Intensely passionate and ambitious, Jayla Walton’s early love affairs might have been disappointing. She cherished dreams of great things, but her partners turned out to be unexceptional and uninspiring. To find happiness in love, she would do well to learn to compromise and accept the other person as they really are.

Mental and Intellect:

Jayla Walton has a fairly skeptical temperament which relies on remarkable analytic and critical faculties. Jayla is sensitive and curious, a keen observer of facts who collects detailed information she will later pore over and analyze. This type of logical, rational mind is extremely efficient for elaborating methods or sorting and classifying information. However, it sometimes lacks flexibility or broad-mindedness.

Jayla Walton expresses their thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. Jayla Walton is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, Jayla Walton looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.