Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Jenny Popach’s confidence in herself sometimes falters, and she might try to compensate for this weakness by insisting on her authority over others. With the people Jenny is emotionally committed to, the same nagging feelings of insecurity prevent her from expressing her generosity and love fully; Jenny’s extreme independence sometimes hides an inability to abandon herself and a lack of assurance.

Jenny Popach is affectionate by nature, and love plays a decisive and central role in her life. She is a charmer who needs to love and be loved. Aware of her personal magnetism and the power it gives her, she will make subtle changes in herself in order to attract positive attention. She is sophisticated and pleased to savor a lifestyle she sees as a consummate art.

Jenny Popach may be subject to mood swings, going from phases of frenzy combined with a feeling of omnipotence and exaltation to phases of apathy and inertia. During Jenny’s “highs,” Jenny’s behavior is vigorous and dynamic, but it is also likely to be somewhat excessive. These periods tend to be interspersed with “lows,” phases of sluggishness and inhibition, which compensate for Jenny’s immense need to assert Jenny as an individual. How can Jenny find a way out of this vicious cycle which uses up so much of Jenny’s energy? Jenny would have to understand that the source of Jenny’s attitudes and behavior is an unconscious desire for power. We suggest that Jenny meditate upon power, skills, mastery, challenge, desire, and need, Jenny’s brothers (or brother substitutes, such as friends, cousins, or classmates) – who are key figures – and Jenny’s adversaries. This should enlighten Jenny. Of course, once Jenny has a clear awareness of Jenny’s career ambitions and profound desires, Jenny is sure to have plenty of energy to accomplish them.

Jenny Popach has a taste for luxury and magnificence, for a dazzling social life and a distinguished career. When things are going well for Jenny, she tends to think of herself as the center of the universe, an attitude which those close to her do not always appreciate. Although Jenny is quite likely to succeed in her ambition to become wealthy and popular and lead a remarkable life in the outer world, her lack of moderation and overweening self-confidence expose her to some danger. Jenny’s exaggerated optimism could create difficulties by causing her to make errors in judgment.

Jenny Popach is sober and rather reserved and may even strike people as harsh and austere at times. Perhaps Jenny was raised in an atmosphere of rigor and sobriety, and, as a result, grew up very fast. Jenny has acquired a spirit of self-sufficiency, tends to be rather uncompromising, and has a touchy sense of her personal dignity and worth. It is almost as though Jenny was fighting an inner battle with her father or a father figure. The psychological models Jenny received from her father or a father figure as a result of her interaction and her own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping Jenny’s relationships with the outer world and society. Jenny may thus have been forced to compensate for this lack with individual determination.

As a result, although Jenny is skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes Jenny timid and hesitant. Jenny sometimes feels as though Jenny is only masquerading as a respectable, sober adult. Jenny tends to be far too critical of herself and rarely feels satisfied that Jenny is living up to her ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead Jenny to turn down the prominent career positions for which Jenny is fully qualified. Jenny is aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like Jenny.

Jenny Popach is extremely sensitive and receptive and tends to live in osmosis with her surroundings. Jenny’s individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over her, and she sometimes finds it difficult to communicate her feelings to other people. This tide of emotion is a source of inspiration and intuition, but Jenny’s fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for her to grasp the essence of her dreams and share them with other people. Jenny is not at all combative, and this tends to hinder her efforts to fit into society and assert herself productively.

Jenny is likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but her refusal to abandon her unattainable dreams is a psychological trap she has fallen into without realizing it. Jenny must understand that by running away from her obligations and commitments, she only increases the feelings of guilt which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once Jenny frees herself from this pernicious process, she has a great deal of potential for fulfilling herself in the outer world, either by devoting herself to some sort of social work or by cultivating her considerable artistic talents.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Because Jenny Popach is fond of method and order, she usually prefers to do things according to a pre-established plan. Her behavior mirrors this tendency. She will adopt relatively strict models elaborated on the basis of logical or moral reasons. She does not readily express her personal feelings or emotions and may sometimes strike others as a rigid person. However, her conscientiousness and application make her thrive in a work environment, and she tends to treat social engagements and activities as a form of duty. Her natural taste for clarity, detail, and technique would make her successful as a scientific researcher or high-tech designer.

Jenny Popach has a sensitive and affectionate nature. She seeks tenderness and gentleness more than passion. Her relationships with others are smooth and pleasant, and she has a natural sense of tact and social grace.

Optimistic and happy to be alive, Jenny Popach is a cheerful, expansive, pleasant associate to have. She is extremely generous (sometimes to a fault!) and gives of herself and her belongings unstintingly. This positive psychological outlook is the result of a happy childhood and especially an extremely beneficial maternal influence in infancy. She is quite likely to be a professional success; her vision of the world is perfectly adapted to prevailing opinion, and her urges and desires for personal expansion usually elicit a positive reaction from society. By old age, her good reputation and prominence may have earned her fame.

Jenny Popach’s sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Love and Sensuality:

Jenny Popach’s attractions are usually immediate and intense. They rise quickly to fever pitch. The story of these passions is often dramatic to excess, combining all the plot elements of a classic love tragedy: jealousy, possessiveness, agony as an erotic stimulant, etc.

Jenny Popach’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Jenny Popach is realistic and has sharp, critical faculties. In a relationship, Jenny might repress herself and be too demanding of herself. However, Jenny can use her charms expertly. Actually, Jenny oscillates between passionate excess and insufficiency.

As we suggested earlier, Jenny Popach thrives on difficult or even lethal passions. Jenny might have a very strong sex drive and a penchant for suffering as a redeeming value. Jenny’s tumultuous love life, a battle of leviathans, may sometimes escape from its bounds or generate disagreements which may disrupt Jenny’s career. However, Jenny’s powerful impulses and drive could be channeled into a creative, artistic or spiritual direction.

Jenny Popach may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive her to seek pleasure. Her need for romantic fulfillment may compel her to marry, because she also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that Jenny had indeed achieved success. However, privately, Jenny might be less committed to certain obligations and duties.

Jenny Popach is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. She is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. She will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. She is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. She usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in an effort to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. She is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, she will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside her, and she feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of her desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, her fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of her romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if she wants to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify herself emotionally, the defense mechanisms she has elaborated to make herself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that she learn how to forget herself occasionally in the other.

Mental and Intellect:

Curious, skeptical, and pragmatic, Jenny has a shrewd, inquisitorial mind. Jenny always tries to detect the hidden mechanisms and processes behind the phenomena Jenny observes. As a result, Jenny has developed an ability to detect the truth behind appearances and the cause behind the effect. Although this way of thinking is based on a certain logic, and there is evidence of structure and cohesion in Jenny’s deductive approach, it is not always purely intellectual. Indeed, its sources lie in a certain empiricism, in facts which have been experienced, so it is open to improvement. For this reason, its fields of application are highly diverse, although research in the hard sciences, psychology, and metaphysics seem to be the best career choices.

Jenny Popach expresses her thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. She is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, she looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.

Jenny Popach has a lively and agile spirit. She is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences without either dogmatism or prejudice. As a result of the liveliness of her mind, she tends to have an opinion on every subject, but she does not always have the patience or perspective necessary to examine a subject and gain in-depth knowledge of it.

She enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses herself with witty remarks, satire, and controversy. If she learned to control her flow of words better and elaborate her thoughts more, she might make a talented communicator.

Because she is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform her ideas, she is sometimes misunderstood. She is often blind to the rashness of her judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around her. If she were to succeed in disciplining her mind somewhat, she would have innumerable opportunities to apply her communications skills to a great career. However, she would do well to be careful of her nerves.