Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Because of Xenia Adonts’ unconscious feelings of insecurity, she is fairly individualistic. Although she sometimes mingles with groups for their competitive atmosphere, she will rarely join in them wholeheartedly, preferring to work on her own projects independently. A lack of confidence in herself may sometimes create challenges in relationships. Her lack of self-esteem may also sometimes inhibit the full expression of her generosity and love.

Xenia Adonts’ personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, she has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. Her unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In her relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, also grates on her nerves. She finds it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

Xenia Adonts is sober and reserved and may even strike people as rigid and austere at times. Perhaps Xenia was raised in an atmosphere of rigor and sobriety as a child, and, as a result, became an adult a little too fast. In any case, Xenia quickly acquired a spirit of self-sufficiency and a strong sense of personal dignity and worth. At work, Xenia is skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, but a lack of self confidence and personal assurance hinders Xenia’s decision-making skills. Although Xenia would deserve a prominent executive position, Xenia might refuse any that are offered due to a fear of being in the limelight. Xenia is aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who are patient, which, in Xenia’s case, is true. The psychological mechanisms described above are probably the result of a paternal complex. In childhood, Xenia’s identity may have been too strongly attached to that of Xenia’s father or a father figure, for one of the following reasons:
– the bond with the father was too close,
– the father was absent and/or idealized,
– the father was too strict, etc.
In any case, this psychological particularity can act either as a handicap or as an opportunity for the individual to overcome oneself. It will result in two groups of opposite but complementary reactions which will rule Xenia’s behavior all Xenia’s life:
– hypersensitivity or insensitivity
– intense life wish or discomfort with life
– obsession or renunciation
– skepticism or fanaticism
– asceticism or lust
– jealousy or indifference
– effort or laziness
The so-called “Saturnian” phases (at age 7, 14, 21, 28 or 29, and 35 years) will be transitional periods that give Xenia an opportunity to resolve this complex in real life.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Xenia Adonts is winning and attractive. They have an appetite for intense emotional experiences, especially in terms of their relationships. Enjoying the power of their personal appeal, they easily control their emotions and only rarely reveal the true depth of their feelings.

Because their instincts take precedence over their sensitivity, they are capable of becoming jealous, possessive, and even rather harsh, without meaning to. More of a flirt than a voluptuary, they are attentive to desire. As a result, their love life will sometimes be casual and complicated.

Sexuality is an important part of Xenia Adonts’ life, and their relationships are most often determined by their instincts. If Xenia has a relationship that is exclusively satisfying sexually, however, they might feel frustration, because they are driven by a kind of unconscious guilt to seek fulfillment for their heart and soul as well. Xenia tends to be a rather excessive and tormented partner, who often re-evaluates the bonds that connect them to their partners.

Love and Sensuality:

Xenia Adonts is sometimes afraid to love – the world of their feelings is characterized by a certain chill and restraint. But Xenia Adonts is not unfeeling; on the contrary, their sensitivity is so delicate that they are careful to protect it. Xenia Adonts’s determination to maintain control of their feelings and force their emotions to obey the laws of reason may stand in the way of intimacy and joy.

Xenia Adonts’ birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. Xenia Adonts enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with Xenia Adonts’ gaze riveted on the future, Xenia Adonts is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Half angel, half demon, Xenia Adonts is attracted to troubled and complicated individuals. Xenia’s taste for independence and need for unconventional personal development are betrayed by the power and compulsion of Xenia’s instincts. As a result, Xenia falls in love when Xenia least expects it, with the type of person Xenia is usually least attracted to… or who is unavailable. Xenia is unlikely to institutionalize Xenia’s commitments with marriage.

Xenia Adonts is realistic and demanding, and expects a great deal from her partner without giving much of herself in exchange. She may tend to be frustrated to the point that she remains single or refuses any emotional expression for herself, but derives a certain pleasure in her self-control and self-discipline. She may experience a great passion, but it may end sadly due to a trick of fate. A marriage of reason might be the best way for her to go.

Mental and Intellect:

Xenia Adonts sometimes considers the input from her subjectivity and emotions as static which she tries to tune out to go straight to the essence of knowledge. As a result, regardless of her field of study, she tries to obtain perspective. She will elaborate a thought on the basis of fairly cold, abstract logic, supported by sober, concise, and immaculate reasoning. Her choice areas of study could be mathematics, philosophy, legislation, or political science. Ideologies, theories, and any other system of reasoning could serve as “food for thought” for her.